Okay, I’m going to be very, very real today. And that’s not an easy thing to do. Any nerdy gal wants to be Wonder Woman. But here are the facts: I’m not. And while I’ve managed to make lots of progress with writing now that Summer Reading has ended, it has only happened with a healthy helping of stress.
And if I’m feeling stressed, won’t that show through in my writing?
I’m not sure it has here on the blog–yet. And I’m thankful for that. But if writing isn’t fun for the writer… then it’s not going to be fun for the reader, either.
I don’t think I’ve crossed that line, but looking back over the last month of writing in a frenzy, I really think I need to re-evaluate.
Here are the facts: I have a full-time job. I’m also a wife. I’m also a friend, and a daughter, and a sister. All of those important elements of my life take time. And while being a writer is definitely one of the ways I define myself… it’s not the only way.
I know it sounds like I’m going to stop blogging–I’m not. I promise.
I just want to do it in a way that makes more sense–that isn’t just me spewing out material because I have a deadline and a schedule. I want it to be natural. I want the stories or poems or observations that I write to come for a real need and desire to say something.
I’ve said that before and adjusted Word-Maleerie accordingly.
And now, I think it’s time to do it again.
When I first created this blog, I had a few goals:
(1) Provide a sort of portfolio for prospective publishers and literary agents.
(2) Show publishers and agents who I am beyond a name at the end of a query.
(3) Write more! (Because it’s really easy to not write when a goal–namely being published–seems faraway and even impossible.)
This blog has helped me do all of that in many ways… but I have to be honest, too, and say that writing material for the blog sometimes means I don’t have time to work on my manuscripts.
And isn’t that kind of counterproductuve?
Again–I’m not giving up. I’m just changing. (And I’ll finish any stories that I have a good start on–namely Plugged In.) But when there are only so many hours in the day, and you also want to have time for loved ones and, you know, the occasional hobby… well, I need to adapt.
Because that’s what we do, isn’t it? It’s either adapt or stagnate, and I won’t let myself do the latter.
(After all, let’s be real: All those “still doing Summer Reading” posts got a bit boring, right?)
I have some time off coming up, so I plan on revamping the website. Bear with me during that time, as I won’t be adding new material. But when I’m done… I hope Word-Maleerie will be a lot more fun for everyone (me included).
Thanks, as always, for all of your support. I truly appreciate everyone who takes the time to check out my blog as I work towards my ultimate goal of publication. Lots of love, everyone.