This was written when I was having a particularly bad day as a result of the pandemic. I wasn’t sure about posting this, since the emotions from it are still kind of fresh…. but I think it’s important for people to know that they’re not alone, that others are experiencing similar feelings. Like everyone else since COVID-19 hit, I’ve often said, “We’re all in this together.” And one way we can be together is by sharing what we’re feeling, by showing others that they’re not alone. I’d be a bit of hypocrite if I didn’t try to reach out and share, too. Truly, everyone: We’re all in this together. We’ve got this. Bad days like the one I had when I wrote this will come, but they will also pass. I know we’ve got this. Why? Because we’ve got each other.

I am not okay

With the worry and the fear

That come from so many unknowns.

Usually, the unknown is little more than a weed.

But these new unknowns are an untamed jungle.

I am not okay

With how twisted the world seems,

With how the rose-colored lenses I wore

Always saw humanity as good and selfless and helpful,

But now those lenses are smeared.

I am not okay

With all the could-have-beens,

With wondering who I could have been this year

And what experiences, what adventures

Would have shaped me.

So, yes, I am not okay.

I am not okay.

I am not okay.

But I am trying.

And I am fine.

Copyright Sarah Davidson 2021