This was written when I was having a particularly bad day as a result of the pandemic. I wasn’t sure about posting this, since the emotions from it are still kind of fresh…. but I think it’s important for people to know that they’re not alone, that others are experiencing similar feelings. Like everyone else since COVID-19 hit, I’ve often said, “We’re all in this together.” And one way we can be together is by sharing what we’re feeling, by showing others that they’re not alone. I’d be a bit of hypocrite if I didn’t try to reach out and share, too. Truly, everyone: We’re all in this together. We’ve got this. Bad days like the one I had when I wrote this will come, but they will also pass. I know we’ve got this. Why? Because we’ve got each other.
I am not okay
With the worry and the fear
That come from so many unknowns.
Usually, the unknown is little more than a weed.
But these new unknowns are an untamed jungle.
I am not okay
With how twisted the world seems,
With how the rose-colored lenses I wore
Always saw humanity as good and selfless and helpful,
But now those lenses are smeared.
I am not okay
With all the could-have-beens,
With wondering who I could have been this year
And what experiences, what adventures
Would have shaped me.
So, yes, I am not okay.
I am not okay.
I am not okay.
But I am trying.
And I am fine.
Copyright Sarah Davidson 2021