Alright… so you know those query letters I wrote?

I haven’t sent them yet.

Yeah, yeah… I know. I’d decided to be brave again. To embrace rejection. To grow and learn from from disappointment.

But you know what? That’s a lot easier said than done.

A LOT EASIER.

I’ve looked back over the query letters, wondering if now is the best time to send them? Should I wait until I have more followers? A more established social media presence? Should I enter some writing contests so that I, hopefully, will have more credentials to add to the letters?

I don’t know the answer to those questions. I don’t know whether it’s better to knock on some wood and send the letters away, hoping for the best. Or whether it’s better to wait for the “perfect” opportunity?

Every time I decide it’s best to just start somewhere, a little voice whispers, “But what if the agent/publisher you’re writing to WOULD have said yes, if only you’d waited until you had a little more ‘oomph’ behind you?”

This seems like a valid argument, and not one made solely out of… well… fear. (Rather appropriate for October, right?)

In short: They’re written. They’re ready. I’m just not.

I’m working hard: Writing, editing, researching. The good news is that I’m not stagnant.

The bad news is: I haven’t taken that one very, very huge leap of faith.

And part of me isn’t sure whether now is the right time for such a jump. And I don’t know how I’ll know when the right time comes.

I suppose I’ll just keep working. Keep moving forward. And hope that I’ll just know when the right moment comes to hit that infamous “send” button.

And when I do… all of you will be the first to know.

Wish me luck.